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Miss You More Everyday...

Whoever said "it gets easier with time" never met someone like you. Mariyah, it's so hard without you here. Summer was your favorite season. It's a time for concerts in the lawn, beach days with friends, relaxing outside, and us hanging out together. I like to think back on our times laying out together, swimming all day long together... roughly 75% of summer to be exact. I miss your texts saying, "wanna hang out?" and then you'd be here in less than 2 minutes since we only lived a quarter mile from each other. Every day I think, I just want to ask you to go with me for a quick run to Target, go see a movie, or go get some ice cream at Buddy's.

This is roughly the time that you'd remind me for the 7,000th time about the 4th of July festival and asking me if I'm going to go to the carnival. You were always so excited about the carnival and going up there with your friends. I miss you telling me all about your day and what was going on with your life.

I actually think I'm still in denial about you and think you're at work or somewhere with your friends. I think about you all the time. There's not an hour, minute or second that you're not on my mind. God I miss you.

It's a Friday night right now and I can't help thinking about how you were getting ready for the night... and it happened. Just like that you were gone. It's not fair. Tomorrow is the 23rd, which marks exactly one month till your birthday, which this year would've been your 21st. We'd be making plans for your special day...

There is so much to look forward to in this life, and it kills me that you don't get to experience it.

I guess I just miss you and it's hurting a little more than usual tonight (didn't think it was possible). I love you so incredibly much, Mariyah.

Love your cousin, but basically your sister,

Katie

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