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I Hope You Dance

Hey love bug, today's been a hard day with you. Tomorrow is my last exam... ever. I'm graduating on the 19th, and oh what I would give for you to be there. Some very exciting things are happening in my life, and I just wish you were here to celebrate with me.

I sit here brokenhearted, unable to stop crying, but I can feel you with me. You're always here. I just wish I could see and talk to you and actually hear you talk back. My heart physically hurts from missing you. This life isn't fair. It's so hard sitting here when all I want to do is FaceTime you and see your beautiful face. 

You've been with me today though. It's one of my bad days... but you already knew that. When I first got in my car today, the song "I Hope You Dance" by Lee Ann Womack was playing. I never hear this song, and didn't think too much of it. Then, when I was out shopping in the afternoon, it played again and it hit me. It's you talking to me. You're a slick one... you definitely got me.

"I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger.
May you never take one single breath for granted.
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed.
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean.
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens.
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance.
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance, I hope you dance."

I will dance, love bug. They may not be as sweet as your dance moves, but I'll try my best. You know I'd totally embarrass you with my sweet dance moves if I could. ;)

I just want you to know, I've been sitting here listening to this song over and over because of you. It wasn't by chance that I heard it, not once, but twice. It was you getting through to me.

I love you so much, love bug. I miss you more than my heart can bear.

Keep sending me signs.

Love you,

Katie

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